An intriguing opportunity has come up for this evening and I am reasonably sure I know what I will decide but I figured I should though process this out. The local gay bar which for a little while has not always been the most welcoming to Hetero Crossdressers is hosting a pansexual fetish night organised by the BDSM communities (straight and not at all) so come one come all in all your assorted fetish gear, BDSM, Furries, and dressers etc. I was at one previously not dressed as it was after a wedding and the after party was at the gay bar (two guys got married) but some people from parts of my life that do not know about my alternative wardrobe selections were there also. So this evening gives me an opportunity to step out which I don’t do nearly often enough but there are a few things holding me back:
Drag Queens – I’m not one of them and they have this whole weird complex culture with a focus on illusion and basically cosplaying a stereotype of women. I can’t stand when they try to tell me how to dress.
Shoes – I have large feet and feminine shoes are hard to come by.
What to wear – Should I wear a summer dress and carry a purse or a blouse and jeans?
How far do I go? – I don’t often go for the entire illusion thing but perhaps I should whip out a razor and cut some of this back so I don’t offend too many people. I don’t typically wear make up so I’m pretty sure I won’t be this evening. I typically don’t wear wigs but perhaps to settle the locals I should consider it.
Opening myself up to the world – This isn’t easily excused such as it is for Halloween this is a non-excuse wear your fetish for the world to see event. Am I ready for that?
I will defiantly go the questions becomes what am I going to wear? I really do need to open myself up a bit more and this is the ideal event I just have to decide how far to go, and yes I know I am the only who can answer that question.