I have been considering a second “How Long Can I last” experiment but a total reversal of the first one where I take all of my feminine clothes and lock them away and see how long it would be until I would be chomping at the bit to get back into them. I have never purged my female clothes but I am wondering how long I could be ok without them. I would just take them all and put them in storage units in the basement so they are out of sight and out of mind and see how my life progresses. I have never all out tried to deny these urges for any extended period of time but from my first How Long experiment it has become clear that life 100% in women’s clothing and by extension somewhat living as a woman is not for me, which is not surprising. Perhaps it is time for me to put it all away and see how life in just men’s clothing suits me? I am not suggesting this as a cure attempt or an attempt to separate the masculine and feminine, I am just interested to know what happens.
What brings this on? I was trying to find room in my closet to put all of the clothes away after doing laundry and it is clear that I either need to buy another dresser, convert my half bath or a bedroom into a walk in closet, thin out my clothes, use my office closet as a closet, or give up on crossdressing. I have a full second wardrobe and if I were turned into a woman tomorrow of similar size that I am today I could likely live for a month or so without the need to buy any new clothes, a hidden stash it is not. I have gone through and thinned out both of my wardrobes and am down to clothes that fit and I wear on a fairly reasonable basis aside from a few specialised items, ie a few dresses and suits. The converting the master half bath to a walk in is tempting but that half bath is also pretty nice. The bedroom immediately adjacent to the master bedroom is the office and is a 10’ by 14’ (3m x 4m) room and though tempting to make a giant closet sacrificing a 240 square foot (22 metres square) space to a closet seems kind of extreme. I have other plans for the office closet mainly building it in a bit for storage of other office related good but using it as overflow is an option as using a guest room closet for specialised clothing can be dangerous. More storage furniture is not out of the question and utilising my carpentry skills and workshop I could make some highly specialised and useful dressers, wardrobes, and night stands which is a likely end of all of this. However the giving up on the crossdressing all together is an intriguing option which I doubt I will engage in as I really do enjoy it quite a bit (I may give up my fly fishing rods, PS3, and maybe even my T.V. (TV before T.V.) before I give up my female wardrobe) but I must ask myself “How long could I give it up for?”. I don’t mean to the kinda miss it stage as I am sure that would be in a week or so but the “I need some panties and I need them now” stage. I also wonder what I would do once I got back into it as I have noticed that the more I engage in it the more subdued my crossdressing is. If I dress regularly panties, bra, yoga pants, and a tank top to relax are enough but if I have not indulged in it for a while the corset, garter belt, lace bra, lace thong, stiletto heels, and the clingy sexy dress come out much more readily. Perhaps there is just a level of femininity I need to get on a regular basis and when the tank gets too low I binge. I doubt I would end up shaved, wigged, corseted, and giant breasted in a dress and 6” heels with my mascara running down with tears as I throw all my boxers into a raging fire too symbolise a phoenix rising from the flames but it seems that a giant dive into lingerie would happen. Though I suppose it is also possible that I would engage less in crossdressing in the long run which also isn’t the end goal as I have said before I have no need to conform to society and give up crossdressing but seeing what would happen if I did is an interesting thought. I could also decide to slowly wean myself back into it slowly letting my wardrobe expand again. I could also flip the switch and go total femme and see how long I last on that side after a long absence from it.
I have no plans to do this in the immediate future but it is something that I am rolling around in my head. Anyone have any thoughts? Anyone tried to deny your desire for an extended period of time? What happened when you finally gave in?