I have some news.
After being raised as a boy, and now about 25 years as man who was just into crossdressing I have finally accepted and embraced that I’m a woman and a man, I am bigendered. I really knew it for years but I finally saw the term bigender and everything clicked. Saying out loud that I am a woman and feeling at ease while also being comfortable as also being a man has been absolutely amazing, I’m happier than I have been in awhile and any guilt or similar feelings associated with crossdressing have disappeared, along with any excitement if you catch my drift. I’m still male and heterosexual I just so happen to be a flat chested woman with a penis who is also a man. Look gender is weird.
I have come out to a few people, and they have all been supportive. My boss at work was very supportive, our relationship is complex known each other for years. She was trying to figure out how to integrate it and ensure minimum impact, I don’t work front facing customers very often so going in as a woman or a man shouldn’t make that big of a difference.
I have many things to figure out, one if which is this blog. It’s called crossdressing commentary, but I’m not really a crossdresser anymore, even the web address is jessxdress. I do need to keep writing and keeping everyone up on the journey I just need to find the right feel for this site, be it one last post that directs you to a new one or changing the name. Basically I am now on a journey of becoming the woman I am. I suppose perhaps a change it title and showing my journey may help others on a similar path.