I went to work today in male clothing with breast forms and it seemed normal and nice. This helped make me more confident in my ability to operate as both as I proceed along the HRT path and physically transitioning somewhat. I am now coming to realize that I have to come to terms with an important aspect, swimsuits. The nature of my job requires me to swim as I teach water rescue and lifeguarding. Now assuming I get HRT and head down that path I am faced with the whole breasts on my chest aspect. I am looking forward to having breasts and even the swimsuits and my breasts being in one and I think I have found a reasonable workaround for the bottom (Board Shorts). It’s the whole change room parts that I am less sure of at this point, even more so than washrooms.
I know there tends to be changing stalls in women’s change rooms but not always and I am not sure if I am ready to be getting all out naked in the women’s change room, or being around naked women in the change room. I suppose I will just have to adjust but it is the one area that I am having some issues processing. I have done some reading and it all seems to be about the same answer; just act like you belong. Having had some experience in loss prevention this is the same way to get away with stealing something, don’t act like you’re stealing it. I suppose as long as I don’t act like anything is off then I will be just fine.
Interesting that I have no issues with having breasts and them on reasonable display in a swim suit or even a two piece top but the process of changing is a concern. It likely has something to do with not feeling authentic enough of a woman to change in the women’s changing room. Even today I have breasts forms under my men’s shirt and am reasonably sure that unless I get really lucky I will be able to operate in both worlds, with the one exception that is central to my job. While I have some reservations about what is to come I am overall excited.